Yes, fat, and not the JOLLY kinda of fat like John Goodman,

the kinda that carries it self well, and cant be imagine thin. No, I'm medically termed, MORBIDLY OBESE.
It wasn't all ways like this.. I was thin at one point in my life, roughly 7 years ago:
Here's proof!

The irony of this pic is that I know look like Del Toro, and he's lost a ton of weight!
So why am I stating the obvious?
Well, its because I fooled myself into thinking I was doing well. I thought, "Eh, I'm not that bad, I've been worse.."
No, no I haven't.
I came to this conclusion after my trip to Arizona a week ago, and got the pictures back.
This picture,

is possibly, the SECOND worst picture of me ever taken, and I don't care if the ferret makes it cuter!
I think that my problem is that I've put back on all the wight I shed last summer and that my mind has been too lax and in a fog to realize that I've been a lazy fuck when I'm anywhere but work. Oh, and even when I'm at work, I nap during lunch time, and chug mountain dew amps constantly to stay awake.
The other problem is, I see myself in a very MATRIX like fashion. When I look in the mirror, I don't see the KINGPIN esq figure looking back, no, like Neo after being plugged into the matrix for the first time since waking up bald, I see myself as I think I am, fat, but not bad.
Is it insanity? Or just denial? I think I'm going with the latter.
But that's the beauty of cameras, they don't lie!
So I've made a bold proclamation: Cut 30lbs in 6 weeks. That's right around the time of comic con. I know its an odd thing to want to get thinner for, but I don't want to be just another fat loser there, but instead, a husky go getter!
So sans tonight as I write this, I'm hitting the gym in the morning before work, hopefully to get the adrenaline going for the job and not need an energy drink in the morning, No more soda for a while, and Gym for 2 hours every night!
I've shed almost 15 pound in less than a day, I think I can do 30 in a healthy fashion in 6 weeks.
Hell, I might finally snag a girl.............
bah who am I kidding, I still have literal TONS to go before that could ever happen.
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